My life is a joke, I have a brother (I was probably just like him at one point). I'm jealous of my brother's looks, his clean future laid out before him. Girls hit on him constantly (I've had a girl on a dating site respond to "hey, how's it going with "ew"...).
I've been sick with Lyme disease for nearly five years now and it's killing me I used to be an artist, I used to rock climb...
The fact that my life is fucked isn't even the worst thing, the worst thing is my paranoia, depression and feeling like everyone is against me... I've been to 40 countries but I'd trade that for just one year of not being sick... I tried to commit suicide one time, belt + bed = failed suicide (the belt broke, I'm not entirely happy I failed).
I as the only one in the family have a round bulbous nose, hair as thick as your eyebrows on my legs and half of that on my arms. When I was a kid I was bothered by my eyebrows so I took a razor and shaved them off, they grew back four times bushier and darker. I have plenty of scars on my arms, legs, forehead and hands. I've always been much smarter then my age, looked young for my age and been younger emotionally.
I still have acne at 23, fuck me right?
I've had a very hard life, so I started smoking weed last year, that's the only time I can let go of all my troubles... I've been applying for social disability for 5 months, it's a special type that only allows me to go to my home country for one month a year (Is it really my fault that I got sick before I got the necessary work time?
I'm going to sell weed if I can figure out how to do it legally. I think I'm one of the people that deserve to do it...
Well here's my fuck me story! Hope you liked it (it's my way of unloading years of suffering).
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